Wednesday, December 27, 2006

The land of "I suck"...

Okay, so I suck. I've been doing HORRIBLY with not walking, not doing much of anything, and I went to the doctor the other day and 'lo and behold, I'm clocking in at 299lbs. This terrifies me. I could justify clearing 300 when I was at the end of my pregnancy, after all, everyone knows a newborn fetus puts 50lbs on you...right? RIGHT? So now here I am, no excuses and I'm at my heaviest weight ever. On Tuesday, January 2nd, I'm going back on the Weight Watchers core program. I'm not sure if I can swing the cost of meetings or not, I may just sign up online again (it's like $65 for a three months) and journal there. I'm going to walk today. It's cold as a mother out there, but I'm doing it. With both boys, I should be able to get in almost 2 miles. (This idea to make myself walk today just occurred this very moment!)

I have been watching cooking shows all morning, and daydreaming about going to culinary school like my brother did. I'm thinking there has GOT to be a way to eat healthfully without eating food that tastes like garbage. This is my mission. If I can't go to school, I'll school myself. I'm going to remove butter and shortening from my menu. Out with white rice and in with brown, wild and basmati. When we get our house, I plan to have an herb garden people would weep over, and now that I got a lovely dehydrator for Christmas, I can even dry my own herbs. (Granola chick in the making, I am!)

Here's the deal: I am practically guaranteed Type II Diabetes if I don't get my rear in gear. Like "Congratulations, you may have already won...!" Well, I don't want it. Because I REALLY don't think I can eat that way, and I abhor pricking my finger every other hour. It makes me ill just thinking about it. So I've gotta figure this out. I'll start posting more recipes at my website as I find and/or develop them. (www.brainaim.com) In the meantime, I made a gorgeous bread loaf yesterday, and now I'm thinking..."How can I make this with FAR less sugar (1/4c. in the recipe).

So, I'm going to jump in the shower, feed Nico, pop him in his stroller, toss a jacket on Vin and out the door we'll go.

1 comment:

the MILKY way (Chrissy) said...

Hey, Chica. I have a friend who is doing the LA Weight Loss program and she's been very successful. You can still eat normal foods, just less of it. Sending hugs...