Wednesday, December 27, 2006

The land of "I suck"...

Okay, so I suck. I've been doing HORRIBLY with not walking, not doing much of anything, and I went to the doctor the other day and 'lo and behold, I'm clocking in at 299lbs. This terrifies me. I could justify clearing 300 when I was at the end of my pregnancy, after all, everyone knows a newborn fetus puts 50lbs on you...right? RIGHT? So now here I am, no excuses and I'm at my heaviest weight ever. On Tuesday, January 2nd, I'm going back on the Weight Watchers core program. I'm not sure if I can swing the cost of meetings or not, I may just sign up online again (it's like $65 for a three months) and journal there. I'm going to walk today. It's cold as a mother out there, but I'm doing it. With both boys, I should be able to get in almost 2 miles. (This idea to make myself walk today just occurred this very moment!)

I have been watching cooking shows all morning, and daydreaming about going to culinary school like my brother did. I'm thinking there has GOT to be a way to eat healthfully without eating food that tastes like garbage. This is my mission. If I can't go to school, I'll school myself. I'm going to remove butter and shortening from my menu. Out with white rice and in with brown, wild and basmati. When we get our house, I plan to have an herb garden people would weep over, and now that I got a lovely dehydrator for Christmas, I can even dry my own herbs. (Granola chick in the making, I am!)

Here's the deal: I am practically guaranteed Type II Diabetes if I don't get my rear in gear. Like "Congratulations, you may have already won...!" Well, I don't want it. Because I REALLY don't think I can eat that way, and I abhor pricking my finger every other hour. It makes me ill just thinking about it. So I've gotta figure this out. I'll start posting more recipes at my website as I find and/or develop them. (www.brainaim.com) In the meantime, I made a gorgeous bread loaf yesterday, and now I'm thinking..."How can I make this with FAR less sugar (1/4c. in the recipe).

So, I'm going to jump in the shower, feed Nico, pop him in his stroller, toss a jacket on Vin and out the door we'll go.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Okay, I lied - 42.57 total miles

I said I'd post again tomorrow, and here it is, not yet tomorrow and I'm posting. Vinny, Nico and I went to the Springville Museum of Art's Free Family Night (first Monday of every month) and got to learn about a local artist's work, listen to the Springville High School singers and pianists, and worked on an art project. We had to paint with tempura paint in one color using non-paintbrush tools. Vinny and I both chose a toothbrush, a Q-tip, and a piece of sponge. Vinny painted a Christmas tree with Jesus next to it and a "thing that Jesus was on when he died" hovering above it. When he got bored waiting for things to wrap up, he told me he wanted to paint more on it. When I asked him what he wanted to paint, he said, "Him eating a piece of chocolate. I'm pretty sure they had chocolate back in the day." My son is very precious, and at times, very um...creative. Anyway, here are our masterpieces. I call mine "Orange Sherbet". Oh...and we walked there with Nico in his sling .84 miles! Whoo hoo! Now I'm dedicating myself to a glass of Riunite Lambrusco (totally gauche, I know) and my new computer chair massage pad. My husband is good to me. I just wish he wasn't working so late tonight.

Walking Provo - 41.73 total miles

So today I broke the 40 mile mark. Amanda and I walked 4.26 miles - a nice long walk, and I felt great (if a little sore) after. I'm a little (okay a lot) frustrated that after walking 40 miles in less than 2 months (39 miles more than I'd have probably walked before I started this project), and I haven't lost a pound. In fact, I may have gained one or two. I have to get my food under control. I keep saying that, but I'm having a hard time actually putting intentions into action. My genius train of thought has even caused me to consider taking up smoking again ("WHAT?" you say, and I agree with you.) I feel so gigantic, like my skin is actually tight on my body. I'm resigned for the moment to wearing only sweatpants, which are oh so attractive. Hrrmmmm. I think tonight, I'll spend some time cleaning out the fridge, and tomorrow, when I don't have Vin with me, I'll go grocery shopping. (Speaking of Vinny, here is a gorgeous pic of him).

It's not really snowing out now, and the snowfall from the other day is starting to melt, so walking outside is really pretty nice right now. We're starting to look at houses now online that might actually be a consideration for purchase. They're a little farther away from this town than I'd like, but we've gotta go where the budget allows.

Nicholas did it. Mat asked for one thing for his birthday (December 2nd) and Nicholas managed it for him. He said his first "da da"!!! ON Mat's birthday! He's also pulling himself up to a stand. I cannot believe how fast he's getting so big. In just one week, he will be 8 months old. And Vinny is a quarter of the way to 7. Unreal.

So, that's it for today, it's cold, but I walked anyway, and tonight the boys and I are going to the art museum for FREE Family Night. Mat's at work, and it's leftover baked ziti for dinner. Not a great weight loss dish, but it's what's in the fridge at the moment. More tomorrow!

Sunday, December 03, 2006

I hate Gold's Gym - 37.47 total miles

I mentioned that I joined the gym a few days back. I finally got in there on Friday and I was unimpressed. The girl at the counter greeted me with a "What's up?" in a gum-chewing, what-the-hell-do-you-want? kind of way. She proceeded to give the the "tour" which involved her pointing to where the daycare, ladies lockers and sit up machines were (do I hear a hint, hint?) The personal trainers were not in to give me my initial eval, so I was on my own. That aside, when I got to the daycare, the told me that not only was the limit 90 minutes, but that I couldn't split that time up (I'd planned to walk in the morning on the treadmill and play raquetball at night with dh). The salesperson, Carlos at Provo Town Mall, told me that I would be able to do that. Well, I'm peeved...I'm not getting what I paid for. So I called to cancel my membership. They told me I'd had three days from the date of contract to cancel, but now I'm obligated to the payments for three years. I told her that Carlos had misrepresented the daycare features. She said she wasn't there for that conversation to know what he said. (?!?!?!?!?) I told her I was telling her what he said. She said her manager was telling her contract states that the terms of the daycare may be changed by management at any time. I told her this wasn't a change, this was what it was before I even signed. I told her I would dispute it with my credit card company, she said they'd send me to collections. I asked to speak with her manager, she said she wasn't there. I asked how SHE'd spoken to the manager if she wasn't there; she said she was at lunch. I left a voicemail. An hour later, I called back. The girl who answered the phone said, "I don't see her (the manager) around, she's probably in a meeting or something." (Uh-huh) When I asked to speak to another supervisor, she said there were only two, Tanya, the one I left a voicemail for, and Tanya's boss. Both were "probably" in a meeting; "they've been in and out of meetings all week." Am I STUPID? The "they're at lunch", "they're in a meeting" line means, you're an irate customer, they're too scared to talk to you, so they're going to put you off until you stop calling.

Here's the deal: If they do not get me out of this contract, I will do the following: I will NOT go away. I will NOT pay for an unused gym membership. Instead, I will go there EVERY BLOODY DAY and be the most gigantic, painful thorn in their side. I will complain constantly and be very vocal about my dissatisfaction, particularly when there are new, potential members in earshot. I will demand repairs, cleaning, more classes, less soap operas on the T.V.'s, whatever I can think of.

Why any company would FORCE an unhappy customer to continue to do business with them, particularly since they aren't "out" anything, is beyond me. I paid them $50 for my first month, and I've gone once. Where is the loss in terminating my contract? I will continue to pursue this, and let you guys know how it goes.

Also, I told Amanda I didn't want to walk on Friday because I wanted to go to the gym. I walked for 45 minutes on the tread mill and got 1.43 miles out of it. Had I walked with Amanda, I would have gotten about 3+ miles in. Buyer's remorse, my friends, buyer's remorse.